Day 57 - Weigh-In Wedne.... Err.. Thursday!

Pounds I want to lose --- 100
Pounds down today ---  0
Total Pounds Lost --- 18
Pounds left to go --- 82


Crap! I had lost a few pounds over the last week, but then the scale started to yo-yo and I ended up back at zero. I felt so defeated, I went back to bed. Yes.... that's when I should have gotten on the treadmill. But I also was having withdrawals from my kids, so I felt justified. My two oldest have both gone camping for the week. My oldest has Asperger's and his favorite form of communication is text. His phone is home. It's hard.


My youngest was already at the babysitter's, but I ditched work and went to get her. We had a Mommy-Daughter lunch date. But I was really good and went to a salad bar and I drank iced tea. I wasn't out to blow my diet, just blow my schedule!!!


Also, my Sunday "Prep" day was interrupted by a mile long checklist of camping items!! I did not chop a single vegetable or fruit Sunday!! :(


Listen to all my excuses!! Blah! Blah! Blah!


It's time to get things rolling again! I have a friend who has asked me to try these wraps, so why not now?? They're supposed to help shrink? explode? scare away? fat cells. We'll see, huh? You're supposed to put them on any part of your body you would like to use it.. tummy, thighs, arms, back fat.. for at least 45 minutes. You can even sleep in it. Measure yourself before and after and see a noticeable difference. Sometimes right away, sometimes after 3 or 4 applications. There are some pictures that are... Meh, kinda see a difference. Then some pics that are YEAH RIGHT! She was also in Ab Boot Camp at the same time!!


I could pick any part of my body, really. But what do I hate the most? Saddlebags!! So here's what I'm going to do. I'm only going to use them on ONE saddlebag!! I'll go with my right side. I'll use 4 wraps. (Can only use one every 72 hours) And document my results.


They will either not be that effective or I will be lopsided!! HA! HA!!

Here goes nothing!!

Day 51 - How I'm feeling today

You know how there's a seven year itch with marriages? Well, I think there's a seven week itch with lifestyle changes. My last 3 blog posts have only been my Weigh-In Wednesday posts. I feel like I've had so much going on and so many things pulling me in different directions that I have neglected my blog. That's just a big ol' fat excuse and I HATE excuses, believe me!! And here I am laying it down! What the hell?!

Although it hasn't been all negative. There have been some refreshing and enlightening moments.

Work: My boss flies by the seat of her pants. Always has. Always will. I have been working for her for 8 years, it's not going to change, this I know. We're starting a new project and my issue is that my workload is about a quarter of what it usually is and I've been spending my time branding our name on social media. I used to use social media as "Me" and down time. No longer true. I want to come home and completely unplug.

Kids: They're out of school for the summer. Enough said.

Relationships: I mentioned in one of my first goal blogs that my relationship with men has always been toxic and I needed to stay away. Truth be told, I was still having the occasional chit chat and/or Sunday lunch/dinner with my ex. I was justifying it with the fact that we have a child together. But he was something I really needed to just quit! After our *last* break-up, one of several over the last 7 years, (big sigh) I was crying to a friend of mine how much I loved him. "No you don't! No you don't at all!! You're just comfortable!" I was irritated at the time. Who wants to be told that when they're hurt? All the warning signs were there, I just refused to believe it!

This was my theme song for him Fall by Annelise LeCheminant 

Do you have to be so charming?

Really you should come with a warning,

And save a lot of broken hearts.

I know right where you can start.

.... I don't want to fall.

If you don't fall for me too.

After starting this blog and concentrating on ME for the first time 4 years (I WAS thin & healthy 4 years ago!) I was able to FINALLY quit drinking the poison he was feeding me!! And it wasn't until I recognized the same symptoms in a dear friend of mine that my eyes were finally open and I felt FREE!!!!! SO FREE!!!! I huge weight just lifted off my shoulders!! I was no longer co-dependent on him for my well-being!! He is so negative and so down on life and everything to do with everyday breathing, he had dragged me down and I got comfortable there!

Thank you to everyone who has ever read this blog. It has helped keep me going through the first part of my journey. And the best advice I can give me friend? Start a blog! Start a blog now! I honestly think this blog and commitment to change has saved me from years of heartache!

Day 49 - Weigh-In Wednesday

Pounds I want to lose --- 100
Pounds down today ---  0
Total Pounds Lost --- 18
Pounds left to go --- 82


I was bouncing up and down all this last week!! I did super good yesterday... and then nothing! And by super good, I mean food. I think I've been so concentrated on diet, that I let the exercise slip away from me! It didn't help that sometime throughout yesterday, that my pedometer reset somehow and I went to bed with 1,000 steps for the day!!??
I even got my family back from my Mother's Day Meatloaf Dinner by cooking Father's Day Dinner! Lean pork skewers with fresh green beans and green salad with veggies! No carbs!! I attempted to make mashed cauliflower, but it turned into runny baby food. I did not serve it. It was gross.

Time for some new fitness goals!!

Day 42 - Weigh-In Wednesday

Pounds I want to lose --- 100
Pounds down today ---  5
Total Pounds Lost --- 18
Pounds left to go --- 82

I did better than I thought I would, especially considering I had very very very little motivation over the weekend! I cleared off the DVR for starters! (In my living room because I got rid of the TV in my bedroom, remember?)  I caved and had a glass of wine on Saturday night. But then that lead to crappy sleep and I was wide awake at 4:30 on Sunday morning. One, I shouldn't have had it at all. Two, I could have had it earlier in the night so it wouldn't affect my sleep. Stupid wine. (It was tasty, just not so worth it!)

And once again, my weekends threw me off and I missed some lunches. I was really good with my water intake though! I can't believe how much I'm drinking now when just a short time ago it was making me gag! The lemon thing helped, but I don't always do that anymore!

I did have some successes...

I went to an awards banquet for work. It was at a restaurant I've never been to before and with it being a banquet, I didn't know if we would even have a choice. But when I walked in, I was handed the menu and asked to choose from 4 or 5 different beef, chicken or salmon plates. The salmon said it came with a garlic butter sauce and I asked if I could have it without. Sure thing! YAY! Then they asked, "Chocolate Cake or Cheesecake?" I said neither and the gal looked at me weird. "You don't want dessert?" I almost felt like saying, "A fat woman doesn't want dessert? Crazy, huh?" But I just said no thank you. The meal came with green beans, baked potato and rolls. So I had salmon and green beans for dinner! It was really super tasty and I didn't miss all the extras!

Last week, all the kids wanted to take turns on the "new" treadmill! That's fine with me!! My youngest spent a surprising amount of time on it. She comes out of the room all huffy and sweaty and my oldest daughter says, "Wow! Look at you! You're all sweaty!!" Youngest replies, "No, that's my fat cells crying!!" That's my girl!!! :)

....Onto another week!!!

Day 35 - Weigh-In Wednesday

Pounds I want to lose --- 100

Pounds down today ---  5

Total Pounds Lost --- 13

Pounds left to go --- 87


Five is my biggest week yet!! I've been following Bob Harper's "The Skinny Rules" for the last week. And I really think I could have lost more if I had EATEN more!! I lost a pound a day for the first 3 days, really sticking to the book. We had so much going on with end-of-school graduations and parties, and a family party, etc.. that I missed lunch on both Saturday and Sunday! I could have been at 7 pounds, but hey! I'll take 5!!

That's pretty gross.

Day 33 - Your weight loss is noticeable when...

Child: "Mom?"

Mom: "Yes?"

(Hesitantly) Child: "Ummm. Have you been losing weight?"

Mom: "Yes."

(Relieved) Child: "Okay good! I thought so, so I adjusted your avatar on the Xbox!!"

Mom: "Thank you!"

Child: "You're welcome! I'll adjust it again if you lose more weight!" *BIG PROUD GRIN*